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Wednesday, 26 April 2006

  • Today has been a long day and every day that comes seems to just get longer... Family life is not easy and its getting harder and harder. I sit up everyday crying hoping that I have the strength to carry on to the next day... I am scared of being alone and I am scared to ask for someone to be with me but times like these are the times when I hide in my little corner and hope that no one sees me. I am stuck in a bind that I cant get out of... Im about to be kicked out of my house after graduation and have no where to go and this couldnt have come at a worse time with my son on the way... I live everyday hoping a miracle will come my way and yet nothing comes... if it was not for knowing my mothers strength before she passed away I know that I would not have made it this far. I need something in my life that will help me hold on. Life is hard and its requires the strong to stand tall but for the strong that end up weak they cant stand and that is where I am at right now I thought that I was strong and I thought that I could handle everything that is happening but I fear that fear itself is weakening me.

Monday, 24 April 2006

  • Hey everyone,

    Exciting life ahead of me isn't there lol well life has been ok since the last time I wrote havent done much but go to school and sleep things with the family are not so good but I guess that is the price I pay for the choices I made. The father wants to be involved and I think that I am going to let him be involved at least with his son but not with me... well I have to work on a Law Speech so I will talk to everyone soon send me comments lots of love oh yea dont know when I am having the baby shower but ill let everyone know soon send me phone numbers so that I can call you with an invite

Thursday, 13 April 2006

  • Sorry its been a long time and I guess that I have alot that has been going on but its all good I have some news to tell everyone I didnt know about it until about 2-3 months ago so here it goes

    IM ABOUT TO HAVE A BABY

    yea my due date is May 27th

    I hope that people understand that I am still me and there is nothing different about me

    Well here is my first entry in a long time

Thursday, 02 March 2006

  • Today I learned something... I learned that no matter what happens there is always going to be a person that stabs you in the back. My so called friends are not friends at all... There is a saying that I heard one time that goes like this... Always be nice to the people on the way up because you'll meet the same people on the way down. I live by that rule religiously because its true the people you are mean to and talk shit on are gonna be the same people that you need later on. But it seems to me that there is not a soul in this world at least out of the people that I have met that do the same thing. I had a friend that I was so nice to I treated him great he needed help he got it but then he treated me like shit so I made the decision to stop talking to him and today he needed me and all I could say was sorry that might have been mean of me but after the way he treated me for so long why should I be nice why should I care he hurt me and now again when he needs something I should run to him well no more not for anyone.... I use to run to everyone that needed help wether it be one of my friends or even someone that I hated if they needed help and I could help I would but whats the point? I needed someone today and there was no one there to help me everyone was way too busy to even acknowledge that I existed but that is ok because they will all need me someday and I too wont be able to help them.... anyways enougth with my ranting and raving.... I miss Robert with a passion he was the best guy in the world for me but it seems that life has been really hard and has caused him to be confused about the important things in life but maybe one day he will see that my love was worth fighting for. Anyways I am majorly tired so Im going to go and try and pay attention to my teacher bitch about some stupid Business Law bull crap lol well gotta go miss everyone with lots of love LATA

Tuesday, 28 February 2006

  • OK so i havent written in a while ive been hella busy.... anyways I just thought I would say a little bit and let you all know what I am up too.... As you all should know there is no more me and andy THANK GOD here is how that went down.... he desided he was going to stand me up so i wrote him a mean email and told him it was over and then he just stopped talking to me its all good though because im SINGLE again and enjoying life so this is how it is ment to be oh and now he has a new girlfriend which sadly i feel sorry for but thats none of my business or my place to say anything so im not but yea anyways i miss everyone and sorry that i havent been on in a long ass time really been busy I hung out with AMBER and JUSTIN this weekend and we had a blast met some new people and went to a couple of parties thanks to a good friend of mine but im out for now hit me up everyone with a comment and tell me what the plans are for spring break

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